A spiritual life

I am having one of those days today....

That day that you just feel like bursting out and crying but you don't know why. That day when all that can go wrong is just GOING wrong. That day when you just don't feel pretty enough, smart enough or spiritual enough. That day when you wish God was a physical form so that you could lay your head on his shoulder and have Him tell you that "it will be okay". That day when you don't know why but people around you just seem irritating...where even that which you could previously handle just seems too much. Yes, M having that day when you just can't even think of ONE thing that is going right and even if you do manage that thought, another one quickly comes to counteract the positivity.Today is one of those days...that day where no one seems to understand you and no-one gets that you want to be alone...they all ask "what's wrong" and you keep saying "fine"...coz truth is....even YOU cant figure out "why". Yes, today is THAT DAY!

I have a hot cup of tea in my hands and because I dont have chocolate or anything sweet, I decided to pour 8 teaspoons of sugar in a 400ml cup! Yikes! It was not a good idea *sip*

With all this turmoil, a question came to my mind as I was internally having a :how terrible is life" dialogue with myself...the question is; have I prayed today?.... Have I spent time in His presence (ALONE) lately?

And the answer to that question is: "NO" *sip*

You see, i woke up in a rush today because I decided to oversleep. I left the house really late which meant that the whole time I was thinking about "arriving to work late". I slept late and was super tired because I was doing my hair the whole day......and..and...and...

OK Lets be real! All these things are excuses. Yes! I admit that I made bad decisions which led me where I am now; but if I knew the importance of having a spiritually "full" spirit then I would've rather been late than miss prayer *sip*

You see, having "those days" only happens because you are either spiritually mal-nutritioned or spiritually starving. Let me tell you the truth, infact, let me put it in a simple mathematical equation:

SPIRIT GOOD -> SOUL GOOD -> PHYSICAL GOOD

Its not hard to figure out: If my spirit is good, then my soul will be good (in other words I will FEEL joyful) and this will translate into my physical body being good (my health and even appearance)

Believe it or not, the saying "if you feel good you look good" is not a lie. Being confidant makes you beautiful, and confidence is a feeling. Feeling happy automatically translates to how you walk, how you greet and yep! how you dress. So isnt it better that we address the root of the problem? because ultimately if you are dressing well to feel good all you will do is give yourself a "high", and then a couple of hours later you are back where you started...or worse, you see someone better dressed and all you wanna do is bury your head in the sand.

Ladies, lets face it. We cannot live without God...so much so that even our core realises it. When you are having one of "THOSE DAYS" .. please stop and think...have I spoken to Him today? have we communicated lately? do I know what He thinks of what I am doing? am I still walking in His will...because trust me, 99% of the time, the reason why you are now suffering from chest pains and stress and depression and short breath and facial outbreaks is because your spirit yearns for the one it loves

So much love for you
Apple [Of His Eye]