A spiritual life

I am having one of those days today....

That day that you just feel like bursting out and crying but you don't know why. That day when all that can go wrong is just GOING wrong. That day when you just don't feel pretty enough, smart enough or spiritual enough. That day when you wish God was a physical form so that you could lay your head on his shoulder and have Him tell you that "it will be okay". That day when you don't know why but people around you just seem irritating...where even that which you could previously handle just seems too much. Yes, M having that day when you just can't even think of ONE thing that is going right and even if you do manage that thought, another one quickly comes to counteract the positivity.Today is one of those days...that day where no one seems to understand you and no-one gets that you want to be alone...they all ask "what's wrong" and you keep saying "fine"...coz truth is....even YOU cant figure out "why". Yes, today is THAT DAY!

I have a hot cup of tea in my hands and because I dont have chocolate or anything sweet, I decided to pour 8 teaspoons of sugar in a 400ml cup! Yikes! It was not a good idea *sip*

With all this turmoil, a question came to my mind as I was internally having a :how terrible is life" dialogue with myself...the question is; have I prayed today?.... Have I spent time in His presence (ALONE) lately?

And the answer to that question is: "NO" *sip*

You see, i woke up in a rush today because I decided to oversleep. I left the house really late which meant that the whole time I was thinking about "arriving to work late". I slept late and was super tired because I was doing my hair the whole day......and..and...and...

OK Lets be real! All these things are excuses. Yes! I admit that I made bad decisions which led me where I am now; but if I knew the importance of having a spiritually "full" spirit then I would've rather been late than miss prayer *sip*

You see, having "those days" only happens because you are either spiritually mal-nutritioned or spiritually starving. Let me tell you the truth, infact, let me put it in a simple mathematical equation:

SPIRIT GOOD -> SOUL GOOD -> PHYSICAL GOOD

Its not hard to figure out: If my spirit is good, then my soul will be good (in other words I will FEEL joyful) and this will translate into my physical body being good (my health and even appearance)

Believe it or not, the saying "if you feel good you look good" is not a lie. Being confidant makes you beautiful, and confidence is a feeling. Feeling happy automatically translates to how you walk, how you greet and yep! how you dress. So isnt it better that we address the root of the problem? because ultimately if you are dressing well to feel good all you will do is give yourself a "high", and then a couple of hours later you are back where you started...or worse, you see someone better dressed and all you wanna do is bury your head in the sand.

Ladies, lets face it. We cannot live without God...so much so that even our core realises it. When you are having one of "THOSE DAYS" .. please stop and think...have I spoken to Him today? have we communicated lately? do I know what He thinks of what I am doing? am I still walking in His will...because trust me, 99% of the time, the reason why you are now suffering from chest pains and stress and depression and short breath and facial outbreaks is because your spirit yearns for the one it loves

So much love for you
Apple [Of His Eye]

WELCOME MESSAGE

Hi there! :) Welcome to my humble abode!

I am so glad you came....what ever the reason for your coming here...allow me to say: I AM GLAD!

My name is Apple...so nice to meet you :) ..

SOOOO...lets get to the real reason why you are here. Can I just start by saying this, #LadyInMinistry is the blog just for you!

Whether you are here because someone directed you...maybe you are looking for a platform to discover about yourself as a woman in ministry?...or perhaps you are trying to find out what ministry requires of you overall...? well, whatever the reason.... Please Come! ...let us reason together....

Now first things first: have a seat, grab a cup of coffee, take a bite into that chocolate muffin and savour the taste...feel that? ....ryt! lets get ready to take off!

Before I go into anything, I want to first start by speaking about WHY we have women in ministry in this day...yep! you guessed it! I want to speak about FREEDOM.

Christ came to liberate...not only His people but also WOMEN. Since the fall of man, woman was under the rulership of man "...and he shall rule over thee..." - Gen 3v16

These words have been misquoted and misused...and yes, at times they have been misunderstood. Do you not find it interesting that when God addresses the serpent and the man in this passage, He first says: "because of what you have done..."? However, when he speaks to the woman He simply states what her punishment is. hmm...Do you not find that intriguing? the reason why my eyes have fallen on this is because I believe this simple difference teaches us something about the original position of man and woman.

Have you ever seen a parent discipline his kids and go easy on the one? The reason for that is because he feels in his mind that the other kid 'COULD HAVE done better because they knew better; then maybe the other wouldn't have fallen'. Adam's problem was that he took advice from the woman, instead of guiding her into the ways of God. God was more disappointed in him because he neglected his duty to watch over the woman and teach her the ways of the garden, instead of leaving her to be deceived, and then falling into the same deception as well. Eve's problem can be summarized just as quick; instead of being Adams helper she was busy trying to be better than God. Think about it, Adam had been around for a while...he saw the first plants begin to grow physically. He was there when God created the animals so that he could give them names...He of all people knew and had been around God long enough to not question anything God said.

However, at that moment he forgot his duty to cover and lead his wife...instead he allowed Eve, out of a lack of knowledge, to lead him to a place of disobedience. Now Eve wasn't so blameless, she took to herself and acted emotionally (sound familiar?). Even though she was "new around the block" she thought she could get a "quick fix" to understanding God...her error was in trying to be "like God"...accepting any quick fix to get her to there!

When God speaks to the woman His punishment is to bring hard labor, but also to subject her under the leadership of the man....what does this mean?

As I write this something is tugging at my heart. What parent subjects another child under another? Is it not one who feels like the one child wouldn't make if they were infact NOT subject under the other?

OK, lets make it logical: God tells Adam..."Adam, take care of Eve..and Eve,  listen to Adam and follow what ever way he leads you to". But why? well allow me to explain it: because God trusted him to take care of Eve. He not only had the knowlege of how things [animals,earth etc] worked, but He had the knowledge of how God worked. And that was it....man was assigned to care for the woman. However, as the years went by, they abused that authority and called it power, and used it against the woman...a power they could have used to protect!

Lets fast forward to where we are today:

Christ came that he might liberate all those in bondage, including that [blessing which became a] curse. Women are no longer "subject" under the man and neither is man "lifted" above the woman..."For there is neither...male nor female; for you are all one in Christ Jesus" - Gal 3v28. Men have been freed from the responsibility of looking after the woman and the woman is freed from the bondage of being subjected under the man. This pure relationship is now reserved for marriage...where the husband is commanded to LOVE his wife and the wife is commanded to SUBMIT (Eph 5v25). Both conscious actions.

So Lady, you have no excuse...

I believe we have an example in the Bible of women that were after God's heart; women that brought change, and women that stood for what was true. I can name many of them; Ruth, Esther, Mary etc...yes, the bible speaks about them. I can also point out women who have led many astray, fooled and cheated their way to the top...Delilah, Jezebel, Salome etc..the list does infact go on. But! The bible "teaches" and we must live. My concern is...where are the women of today? What are they doing and who are they impacting. THATS what a lady in ministry is: Someone who is PRESENT, is ACTIVE and is IMPACTING. 

You see, I believe that Ministry is like Shoes. "If the shoe doesn't fit...don't wear it", because if you do, you either won't walk properly, or you will fall. 

Maya Angelou said: "A woman's heart should be so hidden in God, that a man will have to seek Him in order to find her"...In addition to this I say: walk in YOUR own shoes! Coz truth is, you won't ever be as good as the original you trying to imitate.

You are called! Rejoice! God chose YOU for a purpose...now lets go and rewrite history - walking comfortably in OUR tailor made shoes 

Be Blessed

Apple [Of His Eye]